Haze

So I was rather intoxicated last night. I hate not having some upbeat music to keep me from slipping into depression. Lately Muse does it for me. Last night... lots of booze, no Muse. I couldn't really say all of the emotions and horrible feelings running through my body and mind. If someone were to ask if stress could literally make you sick... I can confirm it. It's not the alcohol, because I feel like this even when I'm not drinking.

I put up a false front to keep my friends from catching on. I hate opening up to people... and I really don't like putting my problems on other people. So, I just keep acting... and I'm getting pretty damn good at it. Sometimes it's just really hard to smile when you feel like you're dying inside.

But alas, I can get through this all too easily. The problem is with me, so I just have to find what causes it and change it... and until I find it, I'm going to do homework.